Good Evening my brothers and sisters in Christ. I pray that you’ve spent the week thus far living intentionally and with purpose. We are on day 3 of 5 in “The Top 5 Things Yahweh Showed Me About Myself in 2018.” If you have not taken the time to read posts 1 & 2 I encourage you to do so before reading this one. As excited as I am for 2019 it was important for me to spend the last few days of the year reflecting on how far God has brought me from the beginning of the year. As always I pray that this post causes you to examine yourself and prompts you to allow Yahweh into your mind, heart, body, and spirit. Blessings!
I grew up in a Pentecostal Church. I remember being a young girl and wearing long skirts at all times when I was outside of my home. Attending Sunday School and afternoon service. Serving dinner on first Sunday after church. Participating in “Watch Night Service” on New Year’s Eve followed by the feet washing ceremony. Til this day I can’t stand touching feet, lol. Don’t forget being baptized in the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. You would think growing up in the church I would have had a better understanding of Yahweh but I didn’t. The things that I remember for the most part were geared towards religious practices versus relationship. As time went on I was exposed to so many things outside of God that I found myself further and further away from the little girl that grew up wearing long skirts. It wasn’t until this year that I really formed an intimate relationship with Yahweh which would ultimately alter my understanging of everything that I wasn’t taught.
I felt it necessary to write about my experience growing up in church because even at that age and in the church I was exposed to sexual perversion. Not only was I but so were other children around me. Not understanding that “playing house” and touching private parts was a door that was opened for the enemy to come in even as children. I spent years trying to forgive myself for operating in spirits that were attached to me as a child. Repenting for things that I didn’t understand at that time in my life. But how great is the God that we serve? This year Yahweh gave me the greatest understanding of forgiveness.
The Word of God Says,Micah 7:18-19
“ Where is another God like you,
who pardons the guilt of the remnant,
overlooking the sins of his special people?
You will not stay angry with your people forever,
because you delight in showing unfailing love.
Once again you will have compassion on us.
You will trample our sins under your feet
and throw them into the depths of the ocean!“
The part that stands out the most to me in this scripture is the mentioning of the word “remnant.” “Where is another God like you, who pardons the guilt of the remnant overlooking the sins of his special people.” Remnant means, “trace remaining.” The years that I spent carrying the guilt around from things that happened in my childhood, God was telling me that even the small traces left of that guilt he has already overlooked. Jesus! So what the enemy exposed me to as a young girl no longer stood against me as this Woman of God you see today.
The enemy doesn’t want you to forgive yourself. He doesn’t want you to forgive others. If he can keep us captive in unforgiveness he stops us from being free, having peace, and growing in our relationship with God. He’ll do anything to stop us from being who God created us to be. But I’m here to tell you as someone who has forgiven herself and those who hurt me. The plan of the enemy FAILED. Not only did I fall out of agreement with everything that he attached to me as a child. I repented, forgave, and grew in God.
When I tell you no one can do a thing like, Jesus Christ I mean it. If you are struggling with forgiveness I challenge you to start spending more time with Yahweh. Get in His word and apply what it says to your life. I guarantee your life will never be the same. In 2018 Yahweh showed me that I was struggling with unforgiveness but through my intimate relationship with Him I am now walking in my forgiveness.
“Understand this one thing. Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ holds forgiveness in His heart for you. Don’t spend another year carrying around the weight of something that God has already forgotten.” ~T.Nolan